Lets be real for a minute: cancer is not convenient. Doctors, tests, surgery - it is never a good time to deal with this stuff. But it's life and it's happening right now. Timing is not good - in 9 days we are set to leave for Europe. The surgeon has told us that even if we weren't travelling it would be 2-3 weeks to schedule the surgery, so doing it right after we return in the middle of August should not have any effect on his treatment or surgical outcome. Thank goodness. We need a vacation, although, taking a trip halfway around the world with two children under two and a cancer diagnosis hanging over our heads is creating a massive ball of stress in my chest right now.
On the one hand I am thankful that the kids are so young that cancer is not something they could possibly understand. If M2 were a few years older she would be filled with so many questions that no parent wants to answer. The downside is that they are both at such a young and needy stage. On a good day it nearly sucks the life out of me to keep up with them and their needs. Children can sense stress and anxiety in their parents, and in response will act out accordingly. As mentioned before, I am working extra hard to keep a happy face on so that my sweet babies do not have to feel even an ounce of what I am feeling.
I take solace in my faith in God. He loves us, he has a plan for us, and he will be with us during this process.
More deep breaths, more prayers.
Sending so many prayers to your family. God is good and faithful, and He will see you all through it. Lots of love your way~
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