Sleep.

Sleep. I need more of it.

When I hear other mom's talk about how their baby slept through the night beginning at 6 weeks, 8 weeks, etc, I feel a twinge of jealousy (and I am not a jealous person, rarely do I feel a sense of jealousy). Our family's path to good sleep has not been one paved with smooth concrete, more like a jutted gravel road marked with large potholes. Sigh.

With M2 she did not sleep well, but that is par for the course with a reflux baby. We did have one glorious month around 6 months where she slept pretty well, but then she went back to waking each night. It wasn't until she was about a year old that she began to consistently go down to sleep well, and to sleep through the night. Then we had P5, and returned to the sleep deprived life with a newborn. He is actually a pretty good baby sleep wise, while he also has reflux, he does sleep longer stretches than his sister did, and we've been blessed with a few nights here and there where he will sleep 6 hours. Unfortunately, M2 has regressed. She is now waking 2-3 times per night, and not at the same times as her brother. There have been nights where I have been up once per hour with one of them, and those are the nights where my motherly love and patience has been put the test. I know that things will get better, but for now it is hard. Really really hard.

Mr.P, who would sleep through a missile attack, doesn't understand because he is getting a decent amount of sleep. This creates a bit of a strain on us; it's hard to not resent your partner who complains about being tired because he only got 8 hours (of uninterrupted sleep) last night, when I'm thinking about how I haven't slept 8 straight hours in 2 YEARS. On the weekends he's like, "Relax, why don't you take a nap with me right now?" Um, because if I don't empty the dishwasher or do the laundry or take care of various household tasks during nap time, then those things just won't get done!